Saturday, October 29, 2011

Last night's snack: tons of sunflower seeds, few gummy worms
I am completely heartbroken about the Rangers. That's all I have to say.

Today
Bfast: oatmeal, coffee (ran out of fruit)
Lunch: Nachos with b. beans, corn, tomatoes, and lots of salsa and cheese
Snack: I'm thinking coffee and a cupcake after work
Dinner:?
Today is my rest day for exercise, so I may just take a nice, long walk this evening.

Friday, October 28, 2011

Workout: Ran slow 1/2 mile, ran moderately fast 2 miles, ran slow 1/2 mile, walked 1/2 mile; arm strength training; abs
Snack: 2 cookies and hot chocolate
Dinner: Sayakomarn's stir fried mixed vegetables, sonic drink
So my meals went exactly like I said.
Snack: sunflower seeds, cookies, chocolate milk, gummy worms
I know this is the most unhealthy snack ever. I just got nervous watching the Rangers game so I kept eating. Nervous eating is a bad habit that I need to stop. The Rangers game was so nerve wracking. I was running in place in our living room for like 30-40 minutes. Luckily my roommates were not out there to laugh at me. I screamed a lot. I will admit that when we got close to winning like 3 times, I started to tear up a little. Then we kept messing up and eventually lost it. I kicked something out of rage. I have issues obviously. So its on to Game 7. I have been waiting for the Rangers to win the World Series for a long time. Thanks to my older brother I am completely obsessed. I know they can win it. (Insert scene from Angels in the Outfield when the whole stadium starts flapping their arms.)

Bfast: cereal, peach, coffee
Lunch: nachos (chips, cheese, b. beans, tomatoes, corn) and lots of salsa
Snack: ?

Thursday, October 27, 2011

I woke up early this morning to go workout with my friend but when I walked outside I realized it had snowed a ton and wasn't stopping. I attempted to get snow off my car, but it was surrounded by mud and it was still really dark outside. So I didn't go to the gym. Instead I did some yoga and ab exercises.
Bfast: oatmeal, peach, coffee (didnt finish it all)
Lunch: PBJ, granola bar, pumpkin latte, few gummy worms
Snack: Hot chocolate and Halloween cookies
Dinner: Sandwich w/ mozzarella and tomatoes, chicken and stars soup
Snack:?

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Morning workout: Bike-10 min, leg strength training, ran 1 mile
Snack: Carmel mocha from McDonald's
Dinner: Sandwich w/ mozzarella cheese, tomatoes, mushrooms and corn and black beans on the side
Evening workout: Ran 2 miles, walked 1/2 a mile
Snack: yogurt, few gummy worms

Overall really good day eating and exercise-wise. My roommate and I were talking about running a race sometime soon. I'm thinking about doing the Turkey Trot on Thanksgiving. No Rangers game tonight was really sad, but I can't wait to watch the game tomorrow!
So my snack yesterday was actually cake. I know...fail for me. In my art class, one of the girls brought a cake for part of her lesson plan. I was just being a good student by eating it. Ok I'll admit it. It was wonderfully delicious and it looked like the American flag. Does it make it healthy if it has fruit on it?

Dinner: homemade quesadilla (cheese, mushrooms, corn, black beans, tomatoes) with salsa and avacado.
Snack: chocolate milk and rice krispy treat
I shouldn't have drank all the choc. milk or eaten the rice krispy treat, but I did. I hadn't had choc. milk in awhile and it tasted wonderful.

Today

Bfast: cereal, coffee, peach
Lunch: chili w/ cheese, corn and saltines
Snack: ? not sure. Nothing sounds good
Dinner: Probably mac and cheese, chicken nuggets

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

What I ate yesterday:
Bfast: cereal, coffee, peach
Lunch: chicken, mushrooms, mozzarella cheese and tomato
Snack: pumpkin seed, cheerios, cranberry mix
Dinner: PBJ, yogurt, rice krispy treat
Snack: pumpkin seeds, cranberries

I ate pretty healthy yesterday. I think I was too busy to worry about eating. I procrastinated on all my homework so I worked on it all day and then after work. I only got around 5 hrs of sleep, so today I may need some more coffee or a nap. Good news: Rangers won Game 5 of the World Series! We are one game away from winning it all!

Eating today:
Bfast: oatmeal, 1/2 banana, coffee
Lunch: PBJ, cheerio/cranberry mix
Snack: I'm thinking I will have a rice krispy treat and coffee
Dinner: Predicting I will eat chili.

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

This afternoon I had another cup of coffe instead of a candy.
Dinner: Pizza
Snack/Dessert: cupcakes
Not the healthiest dinner and snack. But on the bright side, I didn't eat all the cupcakes. I don't feel bad about eating any of it. I ate till I was full and then stopped. I got to spend a great night bonding with my roomies.

Rejection

 I love reading blogs. Especially ones about healthy eating. Its kind of nerdy of me, but oh well. There is one that I read, whose writer I have a few things in common with. So the other day I realized that since she knows so much about healthy eating and I'm trying to find ways to be healthier, why not ask for her advice.
So in my efforts to live life more fully and to be healthier, I took a chance and emailed her for some healthy eating advice. After I sent the email I was super excited about her possibly emailing me back. So later that day when I checked my email I was happy to see I had a reply to my email. But her reply email was very disappointing. One sentence. That's it. It said something like, "Sorry I can't give personal advice, but thanks for reading the blog." Boo. Even though I don't know this lady, I was very hurt by her response. I suddenly got angry. Looking back I'm pretty sure I called her a turd. How sweet of me.
I'm not telling this story so that we can gang up on her and throw tomatoes at her. I just realized through this experience that I am not good with rejection. Even when its something as little as this was. It opened up my eyes to how I'm living my life with a fear of being rejected. When making new friends, when talking to boys, when trying new things, etc. I purposely do not put myself out there because I'm afraid people won't like what they see and throw it back at me. Even though its completely normal to not like being rejected, I shouldn't let it hold me back from trying new things or meeting new people. So when I emailed that lady, I was hoping to learn something. Well I did. Not what I thought I would, but at least its something. I need to stop being afraid that people aren't gonna like me. I need to live with confidence. I don't want to miss out on any more great experiences because I'm living in fear.
So I have already been a slacker with this food journal haha. Usually people don't slack off the first couple days of a plan, but I'm not most people.
Breakfast: A bowl of oatmeal with a little brown sugar and syrup, coffee (much needed), and a peach.
Lunch: PBJ sandwich, mix of cheerios and dried cranberries
Snack: itty bitty candy bar, granola bar
Already had my breakfast, but this is what I'm planning on eating for lunch and snack. I'm not sure yet what I'm gonna have for dinner and for my after dinner snack.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

New beginnings

Even though I have struggled with healthy eating habits since I came to college, this last summer and this semester have been the worst. I feel like I'm eating all the time. If I eat anything sweet I turn into this monster and I can't stop eating. A lot of people have days where they eat too much, but I feel like that every day. For some reason I have convinced myself that it is ok to eat like that everyday, but there are consequences. None of my clothes fit like they should anymore. Every time I look in the mirror my heart cries a little. Some days I get so fed up that I decide that tomorrow is a  new day and I'm gonna start eating healthy. But then something happens that stresses me out or I have a bad day at work or I have a great day and want to celebrate. I always end up eating way too much. I have tried finding accountability partners so that we can encourage each other to be healthy, but it never works. It just feels like no one in my life right now understands what I'm going through. I tell them about it but they act like its no big deal.
I want to make a change in my life but I don't know how to be successful. I feel like I know how all the things I need to do to be healthy but its actually following through with them that is the problem. I think its mostly out of boredom, stress, and loneliness that I eat the way I do. But I don't want to end up 5 years later struggling with the same stuff or being even worse. I want to live my life right now to the fullest without fear of what people think of me. I want to be able to walk into a room with confidence and not worry if people are staring at me and the extra weight I have put on. I don't want to be known as the girl who is hungry all the time or the one always eating. When I picture myself, I see a healthy, fit person who is passionate about what they're doing in life and enjoying every day that God has given me. But that is not how I am right now. I'm the complete opposite.
 I don't want to diet and stop eating sweets because that never works. Why would I want to completeley cut out all the wonderful tasting foods? I just want to be able to go to the kitchen, eat one or two cookies and then stop. I want to be able to eat a bowl of ice cream and then stop, not crave more and more sweets. I don't want to constantly be thinking about when I get to eat next. I want to stop living my life from meal to meal. That's not really living. I want to enjoy a good meal, but not have that be the highlight of my day. So I have decided to start keeping a blog food journal. This way I am more aware of what I am eating and how much of it. I know absolutely no people read this blog but I feel like this will help me stay accountable. I used to keep a food journal in just a notebook. But I would always forget to write it down, or I would feel so guilty about what I ate that I would not write it in there. With this though people can see if I didn't write down what I ate or they can encourage me with ways to eat better.
I have so many reasons to want to be healthy. I just have to want those things more than I want the food that is in the kitchen calling my name. So if you reading this, which I doubt anyone will, please help keep me accountable. Remind me of reasons to be healthy. Give me tips on how to eat healthier. Invite me to go exercise with you. Help me to live life to the fullest instead of living a life where I'm always full from my last meal.

Sunday, July 17, 2011

Family time in Lubbock

So last week my Mom, Dad and I made a quick trip to Lubbock to visit my brother, sister-in-law and goddaughter(dog). We woke up extremely early to fly out there only to find out our flight was cancelled so I got up at 3:30 in the morning for nothing. I had worked late the night before and only got 2.5 hours of sleep. Luckily there was plenty of coffee.



We caught a later flight and we were in Lubbock in no time. I barely had any time to sleep on the plane. We had to wait at the Lubbock airport till my brother could come pick us up. Sadly but not suprisingly, there is not much to do in the Lubbock airport. This was the main attraction.
The bad/good part about waking up so early is that you get to eat even more. I for some reason was hungry at 3:30 am so I ate breakfast. Then I had to snack on something when I had coffee at the airport (otherwise I get shaky from all the coffee). Then when we got to Lubbock I was hungry again. So I had my lunch at 10. And it was delicious. I had like 3 extra meals that day.

This is what I did while we waited.
 Eventually my brother came and got us. We spent our time in Lubbock by loving Starr, their dog and my goddaughter, playing the Wii, and eating a lot.


Funniest moments of the trip: Dad playing a hula hoop game on the Wii. My brother was on the floor and I was crying because we were laughing so hard. Starr seeing me eat M&Ms trying to get them out of my hand and then smelling my chocolatey breath and trying to find the source of the chocolate smell. Even Propp dogs love chocolate.

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Dog lifeguard at your service

One of my little projects this summer was trying to teach my dog Parker how to swim. He always just sits on the top step of our pool and drinks the water. My other dog Gunter is quite capable of swimming and actually looks like a whale when he's in the water. So I thought it was about time that Parker stopped living his life in fear. It took a few days but finally I succeeded. All it took was for me to start swimming and he became worried and tried following me. Its really cute because he doesn't like getting his ears wet so he shakes his head as he is swimming and forgets he needs to keep paddling. Now that he is a little more confident, he likes to chase me like a piranha. It is a little terrifying. But I felt like a proud parent and was showing off his swimming skills to the rest of the family. The sad part is that now I can't swim laps in the pool without him following me, trying to bite me, and then me trying to get him back to the steps because he is still a little guppy in need of assistance.


Monday, July 4, 2011

Becky's Favorite Things

Whenever I like something, I like it a lot. I don't play games. So I decided to make a list of some of my favorite things (kinda like Oprah's favorite things, only way way better). I want the world to know about how wonderful these things really are and how much joy they bring to my life.

1. Coffee mugs-This may be ridiculous, but come on who doesn't love a good mug. Any time I go on vacation I try to buy a souvenir mug. Eventually I will run out of room and will have to stop buying them. This is a picture of some of my favorite ones.
2. Psych-This show is amazing. My family is addicted and we spend the majority of our free time watching it. I wish I had friends in real life like Shawn and Gus (main characters). The hilarious quotes from this show are endless.
3. Harry Potter-I can't tell you how many times I have read these books. They are just so good. I love the movies too, but the books are just simply wonderful in every way. I just went to the Wizarding World of Harry Potter and I'm not gonna lie, I almost cried from excitement when I walked through the first time. I'm rereading the seventh book right now in preparation for the last movie.

4. The guy in the All State insurance commercials- This one makes me look creepy, but I don't care. Every time I see him on the commercials, it just makes me smile. I feel safe just listening to him talk. I caught myself praying for him one time.

5. Whataburger-Their ketchup is to die for. I love ketchup in general, but this ketchup is far superior. They also have wonderful burgers and french fries. Whenever I eat here I feel like a tough cowgirl. I don't know why. Please don't judge me.

6. Texas Rangers- This is my team. I can't play baseball myself, but I love watching the Rangers. The Ballpark in Arlington is one of my favorite places ever.I want to get married there.  I got to go to one of the World Series games. One of the best days of my life.

7. How to Train Your Dragon- This is my favorite movie. I wish I had a pet dragon like Toothless that I could ride around on. The music in the movie is great also and I almost cried a couple times. I'm not ashamed to admit that I own a HTTYD poster and bedspread.

8. Dogs-I love dogs. Especially my dogs. If you let me I could talk for hours about them. The other day when I was in the pool, Parker was sitting partially under water on the steps. All of a sudden he had this look of surprise on his face and looked at his backside. I looked over and saw little bubbles coming off from behind him. He had farted in the pool and scared himself. It was hilarious.
I'm obsessed with a lot more things, but that's all the writing I can muster right now.

Thursday, June 30, 2011

Summer boredom and sunrise runs

I know I haven't written in awhile, but since its summer I now have a lot of time on my hands. Maybe too much. I'm working at Target which takes up some of my time, but its not very exciting or enjoyable. Normally when I have free time I like to read books. Well this summer I have already read 11 books and I'm not done yet. I also have been watching a ton of episodes of Psych with my brother and mom. We are slightly addicted.
I thought that with all this time on my hands this summer that I would be able to get back in shape and start eating healthier. Well the beginning of my summer was filled with a family vacation, graduation, and wedding. I really struggled to workout consistently and eat healthy food. Once things settled down though, I realized I was wasting all my time planning my healthy eating and workout routine and then not actually carrying through with it. It left me feeling frustrated and I was ready to make some changes.
 I read a book called Made to Crave. It was a great book that helped me put into perspective how my healthy eating habits are not just bad for my health, but that its also not glorifying to God. So I started to write down what I ate, my workout, and how I thought I did that day. I also started praying throughout the day when I was struggling to wake up to go run or if I really wanted some ice cream (which in my house is an every night sorta snack). I had never taken this approach before and it seems to be really helping. I still am struggling with my late night snacking and my sugar addiction, but I think its getting better.
I was really struggling with my motivation to run, or for that matter get my butt off the couch and do anything but read or watch tv. I realized that I didn't like running at the park in the morning because there were too many people (mainly old couples, which is kinda cute to see). The other route I usually run was just getting old. So I decided to try getting up earlier so that I could beat the elderly crowd at the park. So a couple of days ago I woke up at 5:30 and went for a run at the classy Azle park. Suprisingly there were a couple of people there, but it was a lot better than usual. It was wonderful because I got to see the sunrise for the first time in awhile. It was totally worth it. So I think from now on, on running days I'm gonna wake up bright and early and go on sunrise run.

Thursday, April 7, 2011

So it is sort of a tradition that whenever all three Propp children are home together, we like to interegate my mother and find out what she thinks each of our special talents are or what is unique about each one of us. This always makes my mom nervous because when we were younger this is normally how one of our conversations would go.

Mom-"Nathan, I think you are really artistic and very outgoing."
Me-"So your saying I'm not artistic?"
Mom-" I didn't say that."
Me-"You didn't have to."
Mom-"Justin you are a great athlete and very responsible."
Nathan-"So I'm not responsible?
Mom-"Oh gosh, I knew this was gonna happen"

I would like to say as we got older that we matured and didn't continue to do this to our mother, but then I would be lying. The most recent time we had a discussion like this it was just me, my mom, and my older brother Justin. She was really hesitant to compliment us, but in the end she caved. She told my older brother that he was a good husband, responsible, and other great qualities that are actually useful in the real world. Then when she got to me, this is what she said. "Becky, hmmm. Hmmmmm." I'm so glad that my talents are so obvious. Oh the beauty of being the middle child. But then she told me that I was very introspective. I didn't know what she meant by that, so I asked her and she replied with, "Look it up!" Thank you Karen Propp. I love my mom and how elegantly she put things. Whenever I got home I followed her advice and googled it. Here's the definition.

to examine (one's own mind or its contents) reflectively
to engage in an examination of one's thought process and sensory experience


Ever since we had that conversation, I have been thinking a lot about how right my mom was. I love learning about myself and why I do certain things. For example, when I found out that I don't smile very often and I speak in an almost monotone voice. I learned that while working at a camp this summer. People always thought I was angry or that I didn't care about stuff. When I got home I asked my mom if I actually do this. She said that I haven't always been like that. When I was little I was super outgoing and smiley. She said as I got older, I got quietier and chilled out a lot. No one had ever told me that I looked like a gloomy Gus all the time or that I talked like a robot. This fascinated me and now that I'm aware of the fact that I look like a bassett hound, I can work on being more approachable and friendly.

Other interesting things I do that people have pointed out to me:
  • I watch tv with my head tilted awkwardly to the side, which is super uncomfortable for most human beings.
  • Whenever I'm thinking, I chew on the sides of my cheeks, which I must say makes me look like an idiot. My mom can always tell if I'm in deep thought because when she looks at me, my face is contorted in a weird way. Great.
  • Whenever I don't understand what someone is trying to tell me I blink a lot. Which happens a lot. I now have the nickname Blinky.
  • I tend to make weird noises randomly, especially when I trip (I make this noise that kinda sounds like that grunt thing Tim Allen does on the show Home Improvement).
  • I smell like syrup. I have come to the conclusion that my body has a maple syrup gland where a sweat gland was supposed to be.
These traits aren't that exciting, but I love these things about myself, even if they aren't winning me any points with the fellas. They make me unique, and I love that I learn something new about myself all the time. Learning about myself helps me attempt to become a better person. I also love knowing that I do these strange things because that's how God made me. He designed me to have the same interests of a 3rd grade boy (dinosaurs, Ninja Turtles, dragons, etc.), but still act like an old lady, too. He knew before I was born that whenever I was in college, that while other girls would want to watch Say Yes to the Dress I would rather watch Texas Rangers games or hockey or soccer. And for some strange reason I feel a connection to Native Americans and lumberjacks. He also created in me a desire to one day get married at the Rangers Ballpark in Arlington and to have a ring pop instead of a diamond one. Now that is a God with sense of humor.
I know this is a super random blog post, but I just love thinking about how God didn't take a short cut and create us all the same. He gave us each unique personalities and quirks that showcase how big of a God he is. So I guess what I'm trying to say is, don't hide your quirks. Celebrate them because you have them for a reason, and that reason is to bring glory to a God who loves every little thing about you.

Monday, February 21, 2011

Gotta love lazy weekends

I went into this past weekend knowing that I was gonna watch a ton of movies. I had to first get all the mandatory things done first like doing my laundry, vacuuming and homework. I finished all of that by Friday afternoon, so that meant the rest of the weekend I coul just chill. I began my movie marathon. By the end of the weekend I had watched around eleven movies. I watched some that were on tv, some I rented, and some I got on Netflix. I watched Moulin Rouge, Amazing Grace, Stone of Destiny, You've Got Mail, Dirty Dancing, Titanic, Sixteen Candles, The Wedding Date, August Rush, and Squanto: A Warrior's Tale. A few of these movies I had seen before, but I also watched quite a few new ones and they were legendary. This list of movies makes me laugh because all the movies are so different. Probably my  favorite movies of the weekend were: You've Got Mail (one of my all time favorite movies), Titanic (A movie that I'm pretty sure everyone has seen before except for me. It was so good and I have always loved learning about the Titanic), August Rush (such a good story and I couldn't pry myself from the tv to eat until it was done, which if you know me at all you know how big of a deal that is), and Squanto (I always love watching movies like this with Allison Post. Usually we like the same movies especially if they are historic in any way. We both found ourselves falling in love with a friar from this movie.)
This weekend had some other high points other than movies. I got to hang out with Granny E, or Elizabeth Hopkins as everyone else in the world knows her. I made some blueberry and cinnamon pancakes that were super delicious. Then after watching August Rush, Allison, Ali and I headed to Chicken E for dinner. We all ate until our stomachs were full, but at the end I still had two pieces of chicken and fries on my plate. Allison reminded me how I had once said something about me being an awesome eater and that if we were in an eating competition that she wouldn't be able to keep up. She knew that I was very proud of the fact that I can eat more than most grown men, so this little reminder just pushed me to eat the rest of my food. I almost exploded. It probably didn't help that I had drank my healthy share of sweet tea. I also am quite the ketchup lover and at the end of the meal I had used 11 ketchup packets. We then had to go to Hastings after this, and yes I waddled every step of the way. I know it sounds crazy, but when I eat too much I feel like I have a limp. So I walked around Hastings limping and burping. It was quite a sight. Sadly this very boring retelling of my weekend does not portray just how fun this weekend was. Yes I did spend the majority of it alone in my room, but by golly it was a hoot! There is nothing better than spending a whole weekend hibernating in my hermit cave.

Monday, February 14, 2011

"Will you answer my dinosaur mating call?"

My valentine's day was quite unique. It was pretty boring for the most part until Audrie and I headed over to our friend Elizabeth's house. We ate some stuffed crust pizza, fruit, and cherry limeades. Then we proceeded to stuff grapes under our upper lips. It sounds childish, but it was a hoot and a half. Then Audrie and I tried to teach Elizabeth how to do a dinosaur mating call. It is funny enough by itself, but then Elizabeth just couldn't get the hang of it. So we sat around for a good 20 minutes trying to coach her. It was a hilarious and gassy event. Audrie and I then went to United to buy a cake pan. We danced in the bathroom to the stellar music and continued to do so, pretending the cake pan was a tamborine. It was a very fun evening spent among friends.

Thursday, January 20, 2011

New semester

I know I haven't posted anything in a long time, but I guess nothing really substantial has happened to me. So I guess I will catch you up on what has happened since the last post. I finished up the fall semester with all A's which is quite surprising considering I completely slacked off and was a procrastinator. I finished my first semester as an RA. I'm not gonna lie, it was quite stressful at times. I think I have grown accustomed to all the changes and my responsibilities. Over Christmas break, I went home and was a complete sloth. I sat around all day while the rest of my family went to work. I pretty much watched tv, read books, and hung out with my dogs every single day. It was amazing. Christmas was lots of fun, and I got some great gifts. Some of them are a How to Train Your Dragon poster, a Texas Rangers World Series jersey, a giraffe heating pad, and so on and so forth. I went to a wedding in Missouri, which was not the best but I was sorta tricked into going. I went to visity my brother,sister-in-law, and my dog niece. I also went to Las Vegas. Las Vegas is the nastiest place ever and I didn't like it at all, but I liked certain parts of the trip. Like we saw the Blue Man Group, went to Hoover Dam, and I had a celebrity sighting. I saw Katy Perry and Russell Brand. My brother and I were completely star struck and I looked like a bag of crap, but I don't care cuz I will never see them again. I'm now back at school and have completed my second day of classes. RA-business-such-things are stressing me out a little and I already have a ton and half million gallons of homework. So I have a feeling that I will be living in the library and HELC this semester.
I have decided to make some goals for the semester because I was such a slacker last year.
1. Get pumped about programs. Come up with some award-winning ideas and do everything I can to get residents to come.
2. Get healthy. Last semester, my eating habits were out of control and on I was not motivated to work out at all. So this semester I will try to get everything back on track. I don't necessarily have to be an extreme runner like I was, but I want to get back in shape. I have already started trying to eat healthy since I got back to school and I havent been doing too shabby.
3. I also have really slacked off in reading my Bible and doing my devotional. I pretty much put my faith on the back burner for a whole semester. So this semester I want to get my priorities back in order and make my faith the most important thing. So this is the #1 goal for the semester.
4. Stop being a procrastinator. I need to just buckle down and get all my homework done instead of doing it the night before. I am going to be studious and an all star student. Haha ok probably not but its worth a shot.
5. Find a boy with a grill. This may sound silly to some, but it's something that has to be done. Not just for my benefit, but for my Level 2 family.